One thing that is truly underestimated is to make time to lie in be and read a book. I have all this time and yet somehow I never seem to take the time to do something like that. After we came back from the airport it only took a couple of hours and Ambrose started to get sick, he got a fever and because we both were sleep deprived, we fell asleep for a couple of hours. I woke up and wanted him to continue resting so he would get better. I decided to read a book I wanted to read for a very long time. The Power of your Subconscious Mind by Joseph Murphy.

For me its important to find a balance in reading/watching both relaxing things, stuff that don’t really give you much. I call those things “Trash TV” 😉 Its not trash, but you get my point. Mine are MasterChef Australia and Graham Norton Show.
Although mostly I find myself drawn to reading or watching something that teaches me how to get more out of myself that before. Its hard to explain but here is an example of something I read and started implementing in my life;

They say success, whatever that word means to you, don’t come from ONE big thing or event. It arrives from your daily Rituals. Your daily habits. In other words, those small things you do everyday its what defines you and the quality of your life.
I thought this statement was interesting so I started to write down some “rituals/habits” that I wanted to have on a daily basic, because I know these are good for me. Of course this will vary from person to person. But here are some of mine:

– Warm water with lemon
– Omega 3, Turmeric and Black Seed oil
– Exercise minimum 45min/day
– Priming
– 15 min meditation
– Begin & end my day with auto-suggestions to my Subconscious Mind
– Wake up before 6AM
– “Shake it off” mentality
– Water. Min 3 bottles/day
– Cut out sugar as much as possible
– Do at least One thing that brings be closer to my goal
– Learn at least One new thing/day

I write these down on a piece of paper and next to it I put the days of the week, similar to a schedule. And then I put an “X” on those days I have completed one particular ritual.

It may seam like alot but its really not. You have to remember that whatever you train yourself to do regularly will after some time become part of you. After some time you don’t have to even thing about it, its becomes your “natural state”. That’s what I’m after.

See if you can make one for yourself. What are the Rituals / Habits that you would like to incorporate into your life?


Reflect, refocus and decide

One stormy day at Bronte Beach

I haven’t been in here for many days now. I needed the time. Time to reflect. Time to refocus. Time to decide.
These three pictures, I believe represents my last days here in Sweden.

I have spend all my energy and dedication on doing just what these couple of sentences from Tony Robbins sais.

I should have been totally exhausted. Instead I just feel more empowered, enthusiastic and calm as Ive ever have felt before. Funny that. I don’t understand it but I think the explanation is that I am on the right tracks now.

Life; if your not who or where you should be, everything feels exhausting. When you are who and where you should be, nothing exhausts you.

The little time I had left I spend outside and with these crazy boys 🙂

Now I am 100 % ready to go home. My beautiful home. I could not be more excited.


Quote of the day

I took this picture last time I was in Sweden during autumn. I think I will get married during that season. As my mum always says; “nature is sooo beautiful with all its colors that you actually don’t need to spend alot of thought on decoration, nature does that for you for free during autumn”

I want to start something new here. I want to add quotes from people I admire, learn and grow from. Lets start with one from a new “teacher” of mine, Dr Joe Dispenza.
Hope you like it.xx
“Meditation opens the door between the conscious and subconscious minds. We meditate to enter the operating system of the subconscious, where all of those unwanted habits and behaviors reside, and change them to more productive modes to support us in our lives.”
 – Dr Joe Dispenza

Creating your life on purpose

Everyone who knows me do know that I am passionate about discovering  ways to get the most out of life.
I do believe we have more power than we have been led to believe.

I do believe that we are here such a short time and to me, not at least trying to go for your success is absolutely tragic. Whatever that success might mean to you.

I will use this place as a platform to share with you things that I learn.
So here we go.

Here is a list that I came across yesterday. I call this list – Creating My Life on Purpose -.
Its main aim is to, metaphorically speaking, empty you “cup” (your life) of all those blockages that is of hindrance to you. And then fill that “cup” with what do benefit you in order to get to where you want to be.

– Creating My Life on Purpose –
1. What is it that I want to achieve? Be specific on one goal.
2. Why do I want to achieve this goal? What does this mean to me?
3. What kind of person do I need to become in order to achieve this goal?
4. Identity what limiting beliefs and blockages I currently have within. Things that are not in alignment with my goal.
5. Use exercises that are for releasing these blockages.
6. Re-Program my mind with new beliefs.
7. Repeat step 6 until the new beliefs becomes a habit.Continue Reading


Good morning!

I just came across a couple of sentences while studying that perhaps explain in an easy way how we can “use” our subconscious also known as unconscious mind. And why we should!
I often try to explain the importance of this but since English is my third language I feel I sometimes cannot do that properly. Okey here we go:

First they talk about that people of course have different “starting points” in forms of e.i supportive and loving parents, born and raised in a developed country, financial stability and other external circumstances that one might argue could help you in life. However, not every successful person had that. Far from it.
What successful people have in common is faith. Not religious but internal faith in them self and their own worth.

They continue by saying ;
Wealth, fame, position, and peace of mind cannot be gifted to you, so you must admit that internal drive to achieve your goals is one big factor that can make your dreams come true.

Your subconscious mind is that powerful internal drive!

What they are saying here is that our internal drive, our will that makes up get up in the morning to do something, our motivation and most importantly (I think at least) that feeling inside that tell us we are worth it. All these personal traits are inside our subconscious mind. And if we want to change one of them, if we want to for example change our fear to confidence? Well we do this true re-programing our subconscious mind.
You do this true repetition of a new belief. and once your subconscious mind has accepted this new belief/way of being you have about yourself, your mind will rewire and this becomes a habit. You just act that way without any effort on your part.

Read this sentence below a couple of times and really try to get it in :

Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will control your life and you will call it faith.
– Carl Jung


Crashed phone

They were doing studies on what “successful” and happy people did in common. The list is as you see above.

So the time has come, for me to crash my phone. I used to think my phone was immortal :), you cant believe how many times its been falling out of my hand or pocket. And time after time I pick it up and laugh because there has not even been a scratch. This morning I was at the gym and I dropped it as I was working out on one of the machines. I was so surprised when I picked it up and saw that it was smashed into pieces. I had to look over and over to believe it hahaha.

Okey, enough about my phone. Its not the end of the world.
What I came here to say was that I have started this Hour of Power. Its what tony Robbins do and have done for 20 something years. He is an inspiration to me and I honestly respect and trust his work. I will definitely go to one of his VIP workshops but for now I will just copy his morning routine. Here is a summery of what its about:

First. Instead of dragging and snoozing, jump out of bed. Directly start moving your body. Go for a run a brisk walk, anything. As you walk, do this breath exercise;  4 quick breaths in, followed by 4 quick breaths out.

Second. Think, see and feel gratitude. Start with yourself, your loved ones, family, what you are blessed with, your health, your bed, whatever. Its important to get yourself in a “state” of complete gratitude so don’t just think it, really feel it fill your body.

Third. Think, see and feel yourself with gratitude for something you really desire As If it is already in your life. For example, if your goal and dream is to be free from an illness, then feel how you would feel as if your body was already healthy.
Remember, the mind cannot decide what feelings are real and what is not.

I believe in magic. If you don’t that is alright. This is not about some magic coming in and changing your life. Its hard work, well maybe not hard but consistent work if you will. I say this because some think that I think you do these steps transform you. NO. You transform you.
Whatever you believe and don’t, nobody can argue that shifting focus from a tired, snoozing, complaining, resenting morning to a morning where you jump out of bed, exerciser, focus on your breath and fill your body and mind with gratitude is a bad thing to do.

Its safe to say that majority of us are not exercising enough. We are absolutely not focusing on our breath as much as we should, that thing that is synonymous with Life itself. And we are definitely not focusing on what we are blessed with in our lifes, more on whats wrong.

Its not even about having a different opinion or not. I think I can be bold enough to say that only a complete loser can argue against focusing on health, breath and gratitude.

Ohhh, maybe I am a little pissed crashing my phone! Sound so harsh 🙂 🙂 🙂


Use me

Isn’t this such nice quote from Martin Luther King? I was look around and trying to understand more about Instagram. Yes I know its not rocket science but I just got it and not that into it to be honest. Anyway, somehow I got into Adriana Lima’s and saw she had posted this quote. And I just loved it. Maybe the part of “God” might scare some but now me. That world is equal to “Life” or “Universe”  to me so I don’t mind it at all. In fact, it makes me enthusiastic and calm at the same time, its hard to explain. I am a true believer in this Omnipotent, this Power, this something Greater.
I am not religious at all, in fact I believe religion to be the cause of most pain in this world. So no, that’s not it, to me there is something far more greater that one of us alone, that “thing” that includes all of us, that force that we no matter who we are, surrender to when there is nothing else that we can do.

Who cares what we call it, its there! And I believe sooner or later all of us will experience that.

Yesterday at my Pilates Reformer class I noticed that they had printed some quotes on the walls. You know as they do in Yoga or gym studios. This one was so nice. They had asked Mother Theresa what she says when she prays and she said; “I say nothing. I listen”.   ♡ ♡ ♡



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I learned this exerciser from Anthony Robbins whom I admire. This is how he starts his day. This way he “sets the tone” of his day. Listen up folks;)

  1. taking a quick shower, swapping with first hot and finishing off with ice-cold water.
  2. doing some kind of exerciser to get your heart rate up.
  3. Here is the breath practice he uses: 4 fast inhales true your nose, followed by 4 fast exhales true your mouth (lips shaped like a duck). Do this for about 3 minutes.
  4. sit in a quiet place, think,see and feel for a couple of minutes of that you are grateful of. Importance here lies in FEELING.
  5. Finish it of by visualizing one situation you’d like to see manifest throughout your day.

Keep doing this for at least 30 days. This breath supersize is, according to Robbing scientifically proven to boost your joy, health and energy level. This kind of stuff has been known for centuries. I just find it tragic that we have not got on board this kind of stuff earlier, speaking mainly for myself hahaha

I choose to use one of the pictures from www.hanievaladiphotoghaphy.com because well, first its amazing, second because this photo of the leaf remind me so much of our lungs in the body! Right!?




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How cool are these Fig tree´s!?!

Few things intrests me such as NLP. I really don’t want to mess up the description of what this amazing thing actually is so here is an more “professional” description by Robert B Dilts:

NLP stands for Neuro-Linguistic Programming, a name that encompasses the three most influential components involved in producing human experience: neurology, language and programming. The neurological system regulates how our bodies function, language determines how we interface and communicate with other people and our programming determines the kinds of models of the world we create. Neuro-Linguistic Programming describes the fundamental dynamics between mind (neuro) and language (linguistic) and how their interplay affects our body and behavior (programming).

I have since Ive first read about this stuff wanted to study it, learn more about it and practice it in my everyday life. On myself and with those around me. To me, that sentence where he writes; “world we create” alone gives me an erection hahaha. How cool is this! Today I am seriously looking into NLP courses and who knows, maybe I start next week 😉

Supermoon – the 2nd attempt


Could not see anything at first. One giant cloud decided to place itself right in front of the moon!



Last night we went out for a drive to try and see the Supermoon – our second try because on the 14th the Universe decided to place all the clouds it had right across the sky here in NSW 🙁
I just got out of the shower, about to watch a movie and go to bed when Ambrose said; get ready, I’m taking you somewhere. We drove up to some lookout place, we needed to get as above the clouds we could, haha if that makes any sense. At first, nothing! We found a photographer at the lookout with his camera and tripod ready. But then…there it was and it was like watching magic.
I love love love being with someone like Ambrose who is constantly taking me around these little adventures. I will never be bored with this guy haha

The quality of the pictures are shit because all we had was Ambrose phone, but its the real experience that counts anyway. You cant ever get that feeling on camera.

Then we drove back home, had tea and watched “Finding Dory”.


The 5 AM Club


No use just writing about changes I want, I need to execute this stuff as well otherwise I’m just a loser hahaha.
The change I want to implement into my life : joining The 5AM Club!
So far I have;
1. read a bit about it. So that I have some informative support from those with far more experience than myself.

2. Downloaded an app called “Loop Habit Tracker” to my phone. For motivation.

3. Harassed my family, Ambrose and friends to join me on this. This is typical Nicci behavior! I have always preached about stuff that I found and excite me to those closest around me. Now that I am far far away from everyone I know, Ambrose is away most of the day for work and I have absolutely no friends I am doing my preaching here hahahha beeeyyoonnd sad, but it is as it is now as my dear friend and role model Eckhart Tolle tells us. 😉

4. I wrote down a few but important points about firstly, what I want to get out from this and secondly, what I will do during this additional time I will gain from getting up earlier. Well, I do this to have at least one hour 100% dedicated just to Myself & my Goal. AND I do this to overcome my procrastination.

5. I’m not going to lie. This gave me some anxiety, I thought to myself well, what the fuck are you going to do EVERY morning at 5am for 66 days that will drive you closer to your goal?!?! But just as quickly I decided to NOT make life so difficult. I am going to get the fuck up, accept that I am tired and unmotivated and I am going to do just one – small or big thing. Meditate, a Tabata workout, do a couple of sun salutation sequences, skipping ropes at the terrace while I watch the sun go up, listen to a podcast, write in my journal (this is my journal). Simple as that.

6. Take advice from those with experience. Here is what Ive learned from others;

– Go to bed early, around 10 -11 PM. Which is fine by me, me and Ambrose go to bed around 9PM the latest.

– Track my Habit. Done and Done! My app is installed on my phone and ready to go.

– Avoiding TV, laptop and phone 20 minutes before bedtime. This used to be so easy back in Europe but here Ambros’s family are watching the news every day, something I haven’t done for years! Its really hard to avoid listening to the TV when its on and they are talking about all the crazy stuff going on in the world. And Ambrose himself is one of those people who LOVES learning new things all the time, always reading. I actually call him my personal Google, whenever I want to know something I´ll ask him. Cant be bothered with Google:ing like normal people anymore haha. And if he don’t know something, 9 times out of 10 he goes silent and you know he is reading about it. He is the most curious person Ive ever met. He is Curious Bob for sure! ❤

– Keep my alarm far away from my bed. This way it harder to find excuses to snooze and continue sleeping.

screen-shot-2016-11-11-at-18-27-32Yeay I am really motivated! Now to when to actually start my 66 days? Just remembered that we hired a house in Newcastle for this weekend for a big party Ambrose friends are having. I want to start this but how hard is it going to be do get up at 5AM after a party with crazy Australians? Or maybe this is the best challenge ever? hmmmm

Our Habits in this world

How Heroes Install Habits


Has anyone read “ The Monk who sold his Ferrari ” by Robin Sharma? If not, I highly recommend this book. Ive read it twice while living in Barcelona and this book opened my eyes and was kind of assisting me during some pretty challenging time in my life. The reason why I mention this book at all is because that I after seeing the whole US election circus last night felt a bit as ” this is kind of overwhelming, disturbing and chaotic. I feel powerless and tired of the world but what can I do”. And I know alot of people have the same thoughts and feelings when shocking events in the world directly or indirectly hit us. The feeling of “well, what can I do about it ?” surely goes true most of peoples heads in times like this. And true, most of us cannot change much on a bigger scale, but if it is true as all the greats say, that we are all connected, that each one of us are part of the whole energy that makes up the totality of our Universe and its outcomes. Then maybe it is also true that  each one of us are a bit responsible for all the shit that is occurring. Over and over again. Maybe if each one of us started making even the slightest changes with our self to be greater, then perhaps we together could assist the world to be a bit greater as a whole.

Ive posted a link to a short video by Robin Sharma where he explains our Habits, and how we can in 66 days ( this is scientifically proven) change our habits, or more correctly, add habits that we want to see in our self. Who knows, one small habit change such as becoming and spreading more kindness and positivity around might do some good for our planet. Now imagine a couple of million of us doing this….

So Donald Trump is the president now, well that’s interesting…..



unspecifiedoI usually love Mondays, new fresh start, beginnings, energized and rested (sometimes at least 🙂 ) from the weekend etc. But not today. This Monday is just filled with a kind of restless, unease feeling. Like I cant figure out what to do with myself, where to go, where to start.
Just came home for lunch after having a coffee and finishing at least one part for our Partner Visa. I did not finish anything, I did not even open it.
The restaurant I was planing to sit at and do some work is apparently not open today. I was suppose to organize a canvas painting with aunt Lee´ and she is not even picking up the phone. I thought I was starting my training today but nope…
Just one of those days when you don’t feel like doing anything. And even though we usually tend to get really anxious when we have a lot to do but our body and mind just wont do those things. I think that’s just exactly what we should do then – nothing at all.

This is a picture Ambrose took of me this weekend while we went to a park to see if we could climb some threes. We both are a big fan of Fig threes, those with giant trunks and roots, and this park had a lot of them.


Sunrise at Umina Beach

unspecified unspecified2Good Morning!
After dropping Ambrose off at the station this morning, I drove by myself ( proud 🙂 ) to Umina beach. After a long walk I sat at the cafe´with my coffee and read articles about our subconscious mind. This stuff is fascinating! To me there is not more that captures my interest. If I could, I would study and work in this area for sure.
Anyway, got a little lost on the drive back but home now and going to make lunch.

Ohhhhh aaaannnndd after being the grumpiest last night, we got an email that we have been assigned an Visa person. I imagine this lovely, kind person to be an angel looking beauty hahhaha. So thankful that this is happening now!


Funny how feelings work isn’t it…


I was just reading something and it made me think about feelings. Our true feelings, these constant fluctuating emotions determining our day, our world and lives. I mean it constantly feels like whenever you think you got it right, that everything is cool something comes, event, people, thought… and it stir things up and it feels like you are up swirling around these crazy emotions once again! Don´t get me wrong sometimes its wonderful event, people, thought. But it still amaze me how little it takes to change your mood sometimes. And if its one talent I would like to posses, is the art of non-resistance, the ability of continuous inner peace and the art of surrender.

Just imagine, to learn to Let Go, Let Life ( suppose to be Let Go, Let God. But I’m not religious, and for me the meaning of God is life itself)

I know, trust, belief in all these teachings from great people such as Rumi, Eckhart Tolle and so on. And I sometimes find it extremely frustrating that I over and over fail to put their teachings into practice in my everyday life.
Its so simple yet the hardest thing somehow….

This morning I woke up around 5:30am to go with Ambrose to North Sydney. I had received a text message from Jasmin where she said something about that I have such character and potential and that I should give it a try and move with her to LA and maybe to go to drama school, go on audition etc. I used to go to drama classes growing up, and as long as I can remember I wanted to work in movies and theater. That´s why my whole family is always on my to give it a shot and that if I don’t at least try I will always regret it…..
And this is the whole point with this post. Everything is great. I’m finally in Australia, we just came back from this amazing vacation, had the best long weekend. Just being here a few weeks and Ambrose has taken me around to the most amazing places. And suddenly I wake up feeling unease about the uncertain future. Fear about once again moving to a new country, our partner Visa, finding a job here in Australia, all the paper work I still have to organize back in Sweden. What the Dr say about my neck injury. Planing us moving back to Europe. Buying a house. And on top of that, that simple text message this morning makes me now think about all choices. How do we ever know if we make the right one?

I hope everyone has a really really good day. And if you are in North Sydney, I can recommend The Treehouse Hotel on 60 Miller st. Such great atmosphere.